11.08.2013

FOR THE LOVE OF PEANUT BUTTER


hey, my parents are in town this weekend! they landed at jfk this evening and got in a cab, then got out of a cab and stepped into our doorway, and not two minutes after they'd barely sat down and started to ease in i launched myself at my mother with full force and literally talked a hundred miles a minute at her for two solid hours. all about myself. ME. 

i have had the kind of week--the past three weeks in a row, actually--where bombs of chaos keep dropping. psssszzzzzz BOOM. and then instead of being the kind of bomb they started out being, they'd change in midair sort of and land completely not how i expected them to land, sometimes softer and sometimes weirder... morphing disasters, in kind of a comical way actually, and i have things to sort out and the bad news for everyone is, i sort things out verbally. by talking at you. taaaaaaaalking aaaaaat youuuuuu. honestly my mom got here just in time (making this the third freakishly serendipitous situation i've found myself in this month), because otherwise i was going to have to talk my feelings out at BRANDON and look, we all know how effective boys are at sorting out the inner workings of a woman's brain. 

the good news is everything is fine, and actually, things are looking up. most of the bad news has become a blessing in disguise, except for the stupidly bad news i got last week, in the "you are way more infertile than you thought you were and may never have any more children" vein, only to have that reversed to "just kidding! but yeah, you're still as infertile as you thought you were, here let's throw some more drugs at you." which was where i was before, you know, only the difference is before it felt pretty crappy, and now it feels like a vacation! compared to what it almost was. i'm just saying, i'm all over the place. it's a long and very involved story and, like i said, still sorting through over here, but the conclusion seems to be thus: everything is going to be great. i have no freaking clue what i'm doing. i am going to try really, really hard to become a more gracious human being. and i'm lucky to have good parents. and a patient husband. okay well he's patient about 70% of the time, but also he deep cleaned the house for me yesterday so that more than makes up for things.

anyway the reason i came here was because in the middle of all this nonsense i baked some stupidly good cookies (therapy baking!) in exchange for a black sweater i'd forgotten somewhere (gratitude baking!) and so here we are. 

peanut butter cookies
(they're sort of a work in progress)
(just like me)
(now that i think about it, i think i found an early version of this recipe on nie nie's old cooking blog)

1 1/4  cups peanut butter 
(next time i'm doing a cup and a half) 
(you can do either smooth or chunky, this is something you'll have to ponder on your own time.)
3/4 cups sugar
1 cup packed brown sugar
(bonus points if it stays a little clumpy, it bakes up really good with a few pockets of carmelized brown sugar here and there.)
2 eggs
1 tsp baking powder
1 1/2 tsp baking soda
dash of salt
1 1/2 cup flour

this makes a really thick dough. 
roll the cookies into balls then flatten with a spoon or your hands on a greased cookie sheet. 
don't forget the fork marks, you know. 
at the last minute i rememebered i had a costco bag of peanut butter cups sitting around and so i thought, why not!

bake at 375 for 8 minutes.

i'm sort of on a cookie roll! for my next trick, i want to try and figure a way to make banana bread  in cookie form. if you know of a recipe that exists for this already, please pass it on! i don't know, it just seems like banana bread cookies would be mind-blowingly good.

this post has been all over the place. and good night!

44 comments :

  1. praying for you friend :) I am also having a what is going on/ I have no idea how to do this kind of a week. which explains why I am wide awake commenting on here at midnight. anyway.. I'm right there with you in spirit, and I think we can do it! I think things are happening like this because they were meant to and soon we are going to understand. right? right. in the meantime cookies AND new girl

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  2. YES to the therapy baking. It is a thing. And it helps, tremendously.

    xo

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  3. I think you're one of my favorite people on the internet. You always make me laugh. And I also just have to say for some reason I love how you publish all your posts late at night. Everyone else schedules theirs for 8AM but you're my late night read--and late night laugh.

    And funny people always have good things coming for them :)

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  4. Natalie, the reason I came here for is mostly to get to the middle of this nonsense but cookies will do just fine, in fact they will occupy my mind for long enough to introduce them to my baking tray. And I think you're infertile just right - right for the time being anyway and the good news will appear like them cookies out of nowhere, from your baking sheet to mine. Happy weekend, babe xx

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  5. Fingers crossed for you.
    Also, the cookies, wow!
    Your little boy is adorable, btw.
    Good night from me!

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  6. I so have you covered on the banana bread cookies. My mom has been making something along those lines my entire life with chocolate chips of course. I'll email you!

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  7. "but the conclusion seems to be thus: everything is going to be great. i have no freaking clue what i'm doing. i am going to try really, really hard to become a more gracious human being." This honestly brought tears to my eyes. Totally different situations, of course, but yeah, I'm right there with you.

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  8. That looks so good! I want those cookies, and good luck! -Hanna Lei

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  9. I just made these over on my blog, except with milk chocolate stars! Great minds think alike! ;)

    http://sometimesgracefully.com

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  10. Http://www.scarymommy.com/secondary-infertility/

    I read that article last night and found myself agreeing to literally every statement.

    I, too, suffer from secondary infertility. 18+months and counting over here. I am happy to not be going through it alone. Thinking of you over here while I have a hot flash ;)

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  11. Infertility blows - we are having our third (and final) IUI later today - 18 months of trying for #1. If it doesn't work then the new year will bring the start of the IVF process, with lots of therapy baking in between. Also, a recipe for Banana Snickerdoodles: http://www.dancingveggies.com/blog/2013/03/on-to-the-next.html

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  12. therapy baking totally helps. these sound amazing!

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  13. Oh yes, the love of peanut butter! Scrumptious!!
    And sometimes comical "booms" can be a good thing. Yay to blessings in disguise ;)
    xo TJ

    http://www.hislittlelady.com

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  14. Thank you for always being so positive. Sometimes it's nice to be reminded that yes, sometimes life really blows, but everything is going to be okay.

    Also, re: banana bread cookies. This is the closest thing I have for you:

    1-2 extra-ripe bananas, mashed
    1 cup quick oats (they have to be the quick oats with this variation)
    add ins of your choice (i am partial to walnuts and chocolate chips)

    Scoop into balls and put on cookie sheet sprayed with non-stick spray, bake for 15 minutes at 350. Eat them all in one sitting. ;)

    xx, Katrina

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  15. therapy baking and chats with mom, it's what makes the crazy world go 'round. give that sweet little boy a kiss and that big sweet boy a bigger kiss. seems to work in our house.

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  16. these sound like the perfect cookie for me. maybe add a little sea salt right on top? elevated!
    as for banana bread cookies, hmmmm, i think you should use a chocolate cookie recipe and add bananas, cinnamon and nutmeg. i bet they'd be amazeballs.

    http://semiweeklyeats.blogspot.com/2013/11/five-years.html

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  17. BANANA COOKIES WITH BROWNED BUTTER FROSTING:

    1 cup sugar
    1/2 c butter softened
    2-3 ripe bananas softened
    2 eggs
    2 cups flour
    2 tsp baking powder
    2 tsp cinnamon
    1/4 tsp baking soda
    1/2 tsp salt

    Mix all that together, drop on a cookie sheet with a scoop and bake at 375 degrees for 8ish minutes.

    Once cooled frost with:
    1/2 cup butter browned then cooled (leaving any burned bits behind)
    1 lb powdered sugar
    1 tsp vanilla
    2-3 tbsp cream ***sometimes I add a little maple syrup and less cream. Cream instead of milk makes all the freaking difference.

    Whip together. You're welcome.

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  19. I bet if you swapped out bananas for the peanut butter in your recipe and (maybe) threw some cinnamon in there they would come out great!

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  20. baking makes everything better. :)

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  21. I sort out my feelings verbally as well. My husband has only caught me talking to myself one time in 7 years which is frankly amazing. Sending you so so so much love in regards to your lady parts. You are the little engine that could. You know how that story ends right? PS I am pretty sure there's a new study out that says diet coke increases fertility so you are covered. And by new study I obviously mean crap I made up to make you smile.

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  22. I made a banana and Nutella cookie a few weeks back, found via Pinterest. They were cakey/bread like and too banana-y for me, so it sounds like this might be exactly what you need! Google it.

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  23. I love you. The banana bread cookie sounds amaze too. Be strong.

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  24. Godspeed, dear Natalie! Beautiful post, beautiful you. I have faith it'll work out for you and you'll be blessed with another bèbe! Loved that you had your mama to "talk at" and be comforted by, so sweet. Enjoy with your folks!

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  25. I stumbled upon an excellent 3-ingredient cookie. 1 cup sugar, 1 cup peanut butter, 1 egg. 8 mins at 350. DONE. I add cocoa to the sugar first, so they're choco/peanut butter. so so good. so fast.

    and hang in there chic mama!! i think everyone knows you'll have another kid, except you. but that's ok. just do YO THAAANNNG GIRL. it'll all work out in the end, always does : )

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    1. Umm, super glad I skimmed through the comments. Trying this (with a dash of cinnamon as well) on, like, Wednesday. (Darn it all that Wed. is the first time I'll be able to bake this week!)

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  26. Pioneer women has an awesome recipe pb cookies with on cups. Muffin tins work wonders!

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  27. Pioneer women has an awesome recipe pb cookies with on cups. Muffin tins work wonders!

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  28. You crack me up! Every time! I'm sorry you've been up and down, but those cookies! Last week I made some amaaazing banana, oatmeal, chocolate chip cookies. Look them up on pinterest :)

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  29. I miss talking to my parents.. They're far away now. Btw its great that you have such loving and supportive parents, hope they tried ur delicious cookies! ;)

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  30. I came across this article and sent it to my cousin, who has been trying to conceive: http://www.ecorazzi.com/2013/08/15/tia-mowry-went-vegan-to-save-her-dreams/

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  31. The banana cookies with browned butter frosting is the best! You have to make it (julianna posted the recipe above). My mom made those for me when i was a kid and when i have made them for others they have said they taste like little frosted banana breads in cookie form :)

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  32. I made these a few weeks ago, and they turned out great (I added chocolate chips, of course)!

    http://dole.com/Recipes/Banana-Peanut-Butter-Cookies

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  33. I made banana bread last night...big mistake there is like a sliver left this morning. There is a peanut butter cookie with bisquick, sweetended condensed millk and other awesome stuff. They are "amazeballs" maybe you have tried them but if not they don't disappoint..

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  34. They look delicious!
    I'll try to do them asap!!!

    With love, Elisa
    My Fantabulous World

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  35. Sorry for your weirdly streIsful situation, coming at you for three weeks straight. I'm glad your JulieMom sat in your parlor in exactly the nick of time. JulieMoms really are the best. (I would know; I have a JulieMom myself. We're lucky, you and I.)

    Good luck with everything. And thanks for sharing the cookie recipe. I feel desperately in need of amazing peanut butter cookies, and I didn't know that's what was missing from my life until I read this post. You are exceptionally thoughtful, Natalie. :)

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  36. Can't beat therapy baking... Esp when Reese's are involved! ;)

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  37. ok, so maybe already about 5 million people have told you this, and maybe you wrote why you didn't and i just missed it, but nevertheless i'm going to put it out there and hope to goodness you're not rolling your eyes over the world wide web at me for suggesting that you use a mini muffin pan for this recipe. mini muffin pan, fill each mini muffin spot with a rolled up peanut butter ball, then when they come out, push those little reese's cups down into the cookie, and let everything cool in place for about 5 minutes before you pop them out of their little mini muffin cups. DIIIIVINE. promise.

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  38. Gosh, I just want to give you a hug (all the way from Australia - so I'd need to have pretty long arms)
    Sim x

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  39. yum! cookies seriously make everything better for that moment in time. thanks goodness for em!

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  40. Natalie - I am planning on making your cookies tomorrow morning, but am all out of baking soda - and haven't been able to find any at the local stores. Can I just substitute baking powder instead (ie, add extra to the mix), or will I need to head down to the big supermarket to pick up some baking SODA?

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  41. Natalie! I am planning on making your cookies tomorrow morning, but am all out of baking soda - and couldn't find any at my local stores. Is it okay if I just substitute by adding more baking POWDER, or will I need to head down to big supermarket to pick up baking soda?

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  42. I baked these cookies for my boss and the girls in the office - they are crazy good. I also ate half of the cookie dough raw before I could get them in the oven.

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  43. just made these on a whim and I actually had these ingredients around the house. Wasn't expecting much, plus I am not that big of a fan of peanut butter cookies. THESE CAME OUT AMAZING. Thanks for the recipe!

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