some days i feel like i need to pinch myself. these days i'm, like, smack in the middle of all of the good stuff i ever had the presence of mind to wish for.
some days are brutally good that they hurt. i'm constantly aware that these are the best days, and that all these moments are the moments i'll spend the rest of my life wishing i could have back. sometimes i wish i could open my eyes WIDER--like, really pull them open--so i can take of it in at once, and not miss a single drop of it. i am just so in love with being this boy's mama, being this man's wife, doing what i do and living where i live and loving these boys that i love so much.
on saturday morning we set out in the misty air for an early mother's day brunch at bubby's. we love bubby's, it's one of our favorite spots in the city, and while we were there we got to try ramps, the "it" vegetable of the season. so ramps are actually pretty amazing. we even remembered to hit the photo booth in the basement.
we took a few slices of pie for the road and took off on a a good walk to nowhere. after a bit we found ourselves at washington square park, which happens to be my favorite of all the parks, and while we were there, stealing bites of each others' peanut butter and banoffee pies and taking turns pushing huck on the swings, the skies turned straight ominous on us. the leaves on the concrete started swirling and scattering, and the hairs on my arms started to stand up in just that certain way . . .
yesssssss!
yesssssss!
monsoon! no it wasn't a monsoon. the skies opened up on us while we were walking up fifth avenue and it was cosmic. the rain was enormous. it felt like the whole of earth was about to swallow us up in its fury, it was loud and thrilling with blinding lightning and echoing thunder, . . . we were drenched by the first second it started and laughing so hard we could barely breathe.
we found refuge in a taco bell! lucky you brandon! obviously acid colored mountain dew and some tacos locos doritos were called for. it was like it was fate. and hey, thumbs up cool ranch. (brandon prefers the nacho cheese. gross.)
the rain stopped and we went home for some warm baths and footie pajimjams and an enormous bunch of fresh peonies with mama's name on 'em.
MOTHER'S DAY. i hope you all had a lovely one. especially you mamas-of-furbabies and even most especially you mamas-in-waiting. i think this holiday really belongs to those who yearn, because you are doing the hardest work. your hearts are loving the biggest love, fighting the hardest fight, and taking the biggest, scariest leaps. my thoughts and my prayers and all of my love have been with each of you this weekend. i hope you took the good chocolate and had the longest and most luxurious afternoon nap of your life. fist bumps. and hang in there.
hang. in. there.
