4.22.2014

MONDAY


entirely unrelated photo of my stinkin adorable child wearing my glasses? check.

today i gave myself the day off for good behavior. i mean if anybody deserves it, it is probably not me.

i hadn't intended to "take a day off," whatever that means, but brandon had decided to work from home this morning and i had a post office run to make, so i pulled on my denim one piece jumpsuit (it makes me look like a mechanic), left my boys in their jams, and snuck out the door to the post office. it was so sunny out! and almost warm, it was perfect mechanic jumpsuit weather. (any day that starts with a denim jumpsuit is bound to be a good one, is the moral of this story.)

i took my sweet time at the post office. you guys, it's just that i really love the post office, i do. i like those automated machines. i like memorizing the order of the buttons to push and seeing how fast i can clear through the menu. no i would not like extra insurance! i don't know, it scratches all my itches. 

and then i got myself a little drink and plunked myself down at the crepe place for a ham and gruyere. i played candy crush a little bit, okay? it was fantastic.

i walked home really slowly. i'm normally booking it to just about everywhere we go because walking faster than everybody else makes me feel like a super hero, and because normally i'm pushing a stroller, and something weird happens when i'm pushing a stroller, i can't explain it. but it was just so sunny. i could feel it bouncing off the top of my head. and my whole body felt heavy--in that good way, you know--where you feel grounded and calm. i read all the movie posters at the movie theatre, i smiled at puppies out on their daily constitutionals, i caught my reflection in the shop windows--hey, jumpsuit! it was grand. i enjoyed myself rather immensely. 

i got home and brandon was taking a call in the bedroom and huck was watching a pixie hollow movie. see, we've gone clear past peter pan and on into the peter pan ancillaries over here. actually, the pixie hollow movies aren't half bad, if maybe a little melodramatic, though huck had long since lost interest and was creating a giant boulder of play dough at the table, each color bleeding into the next like eons-old layers of sediment. i pretended my laptop full of emails didn't exist,  plopped onto the couch and put my feet up, and then actually got super engrossed in this movie. you guys, the winter woods and the pixie dust tree, this is drama. i was into it. and the point of this is, i noticed toward the end of the movie when the autumn forest was un-freezing itself that my heart rate had been completely normal, like, all day. relaxed. i was feeling relaxed. and i laughed because the last time i felt relaxed i think i was in uteri? no no, anyway, it's been a solid year plus since i've felt relaxed and it was sort of the hugest. i think the craziness of all of everything is draining out my fingertips and it is hells bells on fire good.

see also: easter candy. 
(oh and this old video i found and then died a million times watching.)

so next i decided to take myself on a date to see the grand budapest hotel because i was on a roll. and why not? that movie was insane. quite literally perfect. and then when i was laying down with huck at the end of the night, taking notes into my phone of all the cool things he wanted to do with me tomorrow (picnic in the park? check. peppa pig? oink), i thought to myself, yep. there it is. good to have ya back, life. let's go get some sunshine. 

29 comments :

  1. Glory!!! Umm... I love everything about this post. Delightful. Way to go Natalie!! You got your life back, I mean that in the best possible way. Seriously, so happy for you! Enjoy enjoy enjoy!

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  2. Woo hoo! I'm happy you had such a deliciously bitchin' day, one that gave you the happies. And the fact you felt so relaxed, well, hells to the YEAH! Awesome stuff. Here's to many more days like this, Natalie. It's life-affirming stuff, huh? :-) Onward and upward!

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  3. Please don't take this the wrong way but do you think that all the soda makes you feel anxious/jittery? not meaning to be judgey but the fact that you havnt felt relaxed in a year is quite worrying. i know you've been working to a deadline but still..

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  4. Smiling reading this, also made me realise that I probably need a day like this.....also I have a denim jumpsuit for delivery today!!! Happy picnic, peppa pig day, xx

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  5. I seriously love that photo of your little man, brilliant!! :)

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  6. I love those perfect days, where you just feel light and bright and happy for no particular reason except that everything is wonderful so why not. So happy to hear you had a happy day! xx

    www.thewhatsinbetween.blogspot.com

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  7. I love every single word you write and am so glad you share them with us. I really really want a denim jumpsuit now though! X

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  8. What a delightful day! And, it's actually even cooler that you didn't take any pictures. Although I'm new to blogging, sometimes I think I SHOULD be snapping a photo or two when I'm doing something exciting or fun, and then I come back to reality and calm down, glad I can just put my phone away and live in the moment.

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  9. Gah this post is killing me. (In the good way). Lovin it.

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  10. LOVED this post. Glad you are BACK! and also really looking forward to reading your book!! :)

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  11. This was lovely. Thank you.

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  12. I love this post... I went to my local farmers market last weekend and I felt the same way but couldn't put my finger on why that day was so rad, and this post put it into words. The sun "bouncing on my head" and wearing my favorite sandals and taking my time for once after a winter full of hurrying and bundling. I just love your writing, Natalie. Thank you for this post.

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  13. I love this post! It's making me all smiley. Thank you :)

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  14. Natalie I am loving your posts lately! You're back! Your writing inspires me. I loved what you said in Arizona about all the memories that came back to you when you went there, how you were facing a ghost of yourself and how you had left behind pieces you didn't even know about. BEAUTIFUL!

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  15. i love this. it's the small things that turn into big times of refreshment. and let me tell ya, that sunshine is killing it here in chicago.

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  16. Reading this post was my denim jumpsuit today. Thank you!

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  17. I noticed a slower pace this morning as well. Instead of rushing around, getting ready for the day, I stayed in bed for a little bit longer to read. It felt a little weird at first, but I think the fresh springtime sun shining through the window made me want to just savor that moment. This post was great, and that photo is adorable :)

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  18. This is brilliant. I love the days when everything click and seem surreal but natural all at the same time. Yea for relaxation!

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  19. Congrats! You do deserve it! So happy for you and your life!

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  20. this post was so great and the reason i've been reading your blog for years. you're such an inspiring, honest writer.

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  21. A day off is always deserved -Hanna Lei

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  22. this post is everything.


    that, and huck is SO cute!

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  23. Huck is the cutest thing ever.

    www.akloveblog.blogspot.com

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  24. Such a great post! Loved it. And that picture? Come on.

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  25. I had to laugh about Huck watching Pixi Hallow - because my three year old boy was into that movie on Netflix the other day as well! Disney knows where it's at. ha!

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  26. This is beautifully written. Thank you for sharing it.

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  27. I had to laugh at the comment about something happening to you when you push a stroller. My husband is always yelling at me for running a race when I push the stroller. I don't know what comes over me - I just start walking and before I know it, I'm walking through traffic lights and out of breathe and all sweaty and he's two blocks behind me. Maybe it's my body's way of telling me I need to exercise more or something. . . probably not.

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  28. Is Huck well behaved? Because in my mind he is the most well-behaved, sweetest, and most playful child ever! And you seem like such a great and fun mama. Something for me to aspire to with my little guy. :)

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  29. Everyone needs a recharge day, right? I'm crazy about my kids, but sometimes walking out of the house w/o them (even to just a post office), and not carrying a diaper bag and five gazillion other things, is so...energizing! Thanks for sharing your wonderful day.

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