5.03.2011

discovering bedrooms


i have every reason to love my apartment.

i have lacy curtains on the windows, and a mary poppins view of rooftops and tree tops and water towers and clouds of steam and smoke just beyond. the brick buildings outside sing red and gold and brown and yellow.

i have tulips in planters along the sidewalk, and a canopy of blossomy trees overhead. central park lays yawning and sleepy just down the street.

my prewar ceilings stretch high, my bathroom is green. my floors are original hard wood. my front door is silver, and banged up in the most perfect kind of way. the bedroom is spacious, the neighbors are gracious, the maintenance guys call huck "king henry." they make clucking noises at him, they praise his glorious fatness in spanish. they don't mind my incessantly stupid canine lovers.

i'd very much like to somehow, in some way or another, feel permanent here. this place is so beautiful and sweet, and though i'm not sure i'm meant to make it work, i have decided i am going to try. try really really hard.

but.

the kitchen is not to be cooked in. there is nowhere to keep pots or pans, only one drawer for all of the things that have to go in drawers, and any cooking attempt requires temporary relocation of every kitchen item i own, plus a step stool, and also i am standing in the living room during all of this because the living room is the kitchen.

this certainly conflicts with my gwyneth-paltrow-type dreams of organic microgreens served on a rustic farm table, all those mismatched metal chairs, and my collection of wrinkly white linens.

i have no room for guests. no comfortable place to sit, no entryway for welcoming or goodbye hugs, absolutely nowhere for a second stroller or good spread of toys on play dates.

the hallways beyond the door echo with every footstep, every clanking key, every turning doorknob, every neighborly conversation, and every drunken belch at the elevator bank. the dogs bark and growl and pace anxiously.

but. as it turns out, our only closet happens to be just the right size for our tiny baby crib. so our one bedroom, 300-square-foot tiny palace in the sky is actually a two bedroom, 300-square-foot tiny palace in the sky.

oh the riches of a two bedroom apartment in manhattan! how lucky can a girl get?


we are staying put.
(until we can afford a real two bedroom.)

50 comments :

  1. oh how i enjoy that last picture of huck in his bedroom! : )

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  2. I love Huck in the closet.

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  3. And I like the old banner better...

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  4. "a mary poppins view"...i wouldn't mind having one of those some day.

    if/when we have a young'un in the next five years (while we're stuck where we are), they are getting put in the closet. though our one-bedroom is time and a half the size of yours, it's certainly none too big, and the massive closet/only bedroom storage will inevitably end up as a mini bedroom for a mini person.

    also, is that the alma papa or mini? what do you think of it? how does it fit your huck -- does it look like he'll outgrow it soon, or just make do?

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  5. some days, when the weather is particularly nice, and i walk down my street past the couples eating outside at the local restaurant, and nod at my super who is the kindest man, and head up to my apartment with (also) amazing hardwood floors (are there softwood floors?), i remember to hold on to how perfect it feels to be young and struggling in nyc. because the tiny kitchen, the bathroom with no electrical outlets and the fact that i have to stand on my bed to open up my closet, will all seem so near, and dear, and innocent and perfect when i am struggling to clean a multiple-bedroom house, cook for more than just myself and worry about how the front lawn looks. i feel your pain. but just like you i try to focus on what's good. someday, a very long time for now, it won't just seem good, it will seem perfect.

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  6. His little face is killing me!

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  7. I envy your NYC apartment in the sky- although I am sure it comes with many challenges. I am now blessed with 4 kids, so any dreams I had of ever living in NYC will probably not come to pass (unless I become a gazillionaire:). But I get to come visit June 10th! I wish it wasn't weird to say we should meet up! I have a 5 month old baby girl who would love to meet your Huck. And she could definitely compete with his adorable chubbiness! :)

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  8. oh... um... I liked the other banner too. Like, really liked it.

    But I LOVE seeing Huck in the closet. Peek a boo!

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  9. Love the kid in the closet. Team Holbs on the Banner.

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  10. I'm in the process of moving my four girls into the one bedroom! we too live inner city (australia) and our house is small but I do have a HUGE kitchen. I could not imagine never being able to cook! take out food is expensive in australia so I have to cook. I feel your pain of living in a small house, but think your first paragraph was one of the most beautiful 'look on the bright side of living in a city' that I have ever read.

    my favourite kids living in a cupboard? http://jordanferney.blogspot.com/2011/02/moses-and-romans-closet-part-iii.html

    so cute I almost want to do it, except i have no walk in robe!

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  11. I like the banner a lot. It goes with the handmade moccasins in the corner. Also Huck is adorable, but I'm curious do the closet doors stay open at night or does he get some privacy? Seriously. . . I am really curious.

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  12. You have gift of eloquence.... I too preferred the old banner. And that picture of Huck in his crib is so gorgeous!

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  13. I enjoy that you share the Holbs' opinions for all to see. Does he roll his eyes when you do so?
    Also if you can't change apartments, then by all means, an occasional banner change is totally necessary.

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  14. AnonymousMay 04, 2011

    I will say that I've really been enjoying your posts this week, missing capital letters notwithstanding. It's like having the old NTFR back. But I'm not diggin' the new banner. I liked the old one a lot.

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  15. PLEASE DON'T CLOSE THE DOORS ON HUCK!

    Phew. I feel better now. I was worried I might suffocate thinking about him in his new little room.

    We do what we have to in order to survive. I've lived in some crazy places in my time, all for the sake of supporting my family.

    Is the new banner an arrow?

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  16. I loved seeing the chunky baby on the banner better.....who wouldn't. I suggest making a new one revolving around his cuteness=)

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  17. AnonymousMay 04, 2011

    I think the new banner is kind of boring... Also, what is the deal with putting two slashes in front of everything? What is that supposed to mean?

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  18. i like the banner... it's different! love huck's new diggs as well. what a cutie patootie :)

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  19. Ha ha, this reminds of the episode of Seinfeld where Kramar puts his Japanese visitors to bed in a huge chest of drawers. Priceless.

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  20. ::stamps feet::

    We want old banner! We want old banner!

    Muhahahah.

    But seriously, dude, jesting aside, please consider putting the old banner back. It was so pretty and awesome in its sophisticated, black-and-white photographic glory!

    (...please? Heh heh.)

    Holbs's "There is to be no cooking in this apartment!" made me chortle. For some reason I "heard" it being said in the same tone of someone cartoonily saying, "To the Batmobile!"

    And yay for the closet-cum-bedroom, woo hooo!

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  21. Must be a good time for banner changing, I just messed with mine as well. I'm tired of messing with it so it will stay for now.

    Love the little bedroom. It's not much smaller than the bedrooms we have in our 50yr old house. I dream of being about to open my dresser drawers without standing on my bed. Oh the dreams.

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  22. I used to play in NYC when I was in my twenties. I loved it, but I knew I could never live there.

    But remember, it's New York, a place like no other. There's the MOMA, the Frick, the Gugenheim, that crazy Irish place where there's live music every night, Central Park, Ellis Island, even the library.

    You've made a cosy place for yourselves. Eat out. Enjoy yourselves.

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  23. Awww, huck is too cute. I must say I was pretty impartial to the old banner but this one is growing on me, i think, given time it could be my new fave :)

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  24. YAY for closet-bedrooms! And I hear you on the space thing, living here in the city... I just keep telling myself "someday" ...

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  25. Not that you're taking a poll, but I loved the old banner. However, I disliked those ugly blue pants more. (and the light blue is too light for my monitor, I can hardly see it).

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  26. Huck's face is priceless. hahaaa!
    I didn't notice the new banner at first glance, but I like it - but apparently it's not an attention grabber. I liked the pictures in the other(of course!)

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  27. i know when you do something new you want people to like it... but i like the photos in the old banner? how can i see who you are now, you've become a red arrow. (well that's what it looks like to me) :)

    sigh i guess change is always hard!

    p.s. huck is going to laugh when he's older when he finds out he was stuffed into the closet... it reminds me of harry potter.

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  28. Huck in the crib: ADORable!
    New banner: How does that arrow visually say NatTheFatRat? Thought it was part of the ziploc banner ad above it.

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  29. Living in Chicago, I debate daily on which neighborhood would be the perfect one for me. We live on the north side, in a neighborhood with mostly 2 or 3 flat walk ups. It's more like I'd picture some parts of Brooklyn-- easier to drive, less crowded, but still trains and busses to connect to the busier parts of the city. But your posts make me wonder what it would be like living in one of the more urban parts of Chicago, with high rise buildings and busier sidewalks. No matter where you guys end up in the future, you'll always have this amazing time in the heart of NYC. It will be funny to look back on stories like the time Huck lived in the closet!

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  30. AnonymousMay 04, 2011

    Old banner was adorable. I thought this one was part of the Ziploc ad that was above it.

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  31. Enjoy the tiny space now because someday you might actually miss it. The way you describe it, bringing out all the highlights, it lovely... even if it's a bit claustrophobic at times.

    Love the pic of Huck!

    As for the banner, I honestly didn't even realize it had changed until you said something. So I'm thinking... maybe it doesn't stand out much???

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  32. By the way, as a user interface professional, PLLEEEEAAZZZZ drop the teal text!!!

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  33. the redhead wins this one -- old banner, please find your way back! that arrow looks like it's searching for a target, and really, nat, haven't you already hit the bullseye with the huckleberry deliciousness of yours?

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  34. huck is harry potter! raised in a closet. though i'm sure huck won't really be RAISED there. at least, hopefully not.....

    and i do like the new banner. BUT....i like the old one better....this one is huckless! and that is sad.

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  35. Ha! That is too cute! Totally understand your feelings on loving your little home and all its character, but also being frustrated because it makes basic things such as cooking difficult!

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  36. You new banner is great if the ad above it is where you want the primary focus to be. At the moment your page looks like it belongs to Groupon.

    Love the pic of huck! Now that would be a great banner pic.

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  37. AnonymousMay 04, 2011

    The old banner was better - this is too blah and boring! Change it back like the other which had a real new yorky "mad about you" vibe. Love your blog by the way! From a reader in New Hampshire

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  38. good luck with the staying/moving dilemma, it can be a rough one! and cute header :)

    xo
    Lindsey
    www.lindseyandorlando.blogspot.com

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  39. I am in love with the closet & I really love the arrow banner but CLEARLY I am outvoted here... as for the apartment - can I suggest becoming one with some of the best minimalist blogs out there? How many pots do you really need? That kind of ethos is becoming my mantra as we are combining households as marrieds and I can't compare to your 300 square feets I just want you to be happier (if that is even possible - you seem so deliciously content and I read you to get even more glee out of life)... I love your place - once you love it - the *real* 2 bedroom will fall from the sky!

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  40. just wanted to say that i love the new banner! i of course thought it was chevrons...my obsession. xo

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  41. The picture of your son is too cute for words! You need to frame that one. It could be an ad for New York City—move here! We don't need no stinkin' bedrooms!

    PS I really like your new banner. I saw it this morning and thought to myself how unique and kinda bad-ass it is.

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  42. @katie, it's the mini, and it is MI-NI. he's practically outgrown it already, but we don't really have any other option, out apt is just too small. i hope he'll just learn to love his cozy space! (it's a really great crib.)

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  43. @emma & @liv huck has four doors to his closet bedroom. two stay open and two stay shut, for ventilation/privacy reasons. (i sat in there before i moved the crib in just to see. it is neither musty nor stuffy. i promise!)

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  44. CUTE photo of Huck in the closet. He looks so surprised :-)

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  45. yeah, not loving the banner. I loved the picture banner! I am so glad you are able to find creative ways of making your apartment work. I live in a duplex that is 900 square feet and feel boxed in! I would NEVER make 300 sf work!!

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  46. Emily LaneMay 05, 2011

    hehe oh no! poor huck. I've seen cute closets turned baby room but this just seems tragic. Maybe it's time for a move to Brooklyn?

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  47. In college I used my walk in closet as an "office" :)

    Ps.... I like the banner. Although I think it would look more balanced if "nat the fat rat" was on the left side. Just a thought. Do your thang.

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  48. Your old banner was better! This looks too drab and dull. I loved your old one!! One of the best I've seen. It gave a nice feeling just to land up on your blog and then reading it just made it better! :)

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  49. Oh and baby huck is soooo adorable!!! :)

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  50. It's been a while since I read your blog and commented. Maybe a month ago? But I think I remember saying something about your new banner back then. I can't remember for sure.

    Anyway. It's your blog, so you do what you like with your page, but since you asked... I totally hate the red arrow. (I'm sorry.) It just looks so cold and distant, not welcoming and happy like your blog should feel. :-)

    But yay for a second bedroom and Mary Poppins-like vistas!

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